Some pix of me in happier times
BEFORE THE HELL STARTED!!!!
Me and my momma!!! i was having contrantions here but they didn't really hurt yet!!
Aaaah me and the Daddy!!!!
The week long stay at the hospital was HORRID!!! They say you forget the pain of having a baby, well im here to say
"OH NO YOU DO NOT"!!! ahahaha , lets see i remember the intolerable pain of the contractions, where you just want to crawl out of your body cuz it hurts so bad, the shaking from the epidural, the yacking my guts out inbetween trying to push a baby out with about 12 people in the room, and the freezing temperatures of the operating room !!!
After being up from 4:30am on monday morning and being in labor all day and night i was soooooooo F-ing tired i just wanted to go to sleep and i remember begging the guy in the c-section room to just put me out of my misery!! AHAHA!!
Than after all of that hard ass work they don't even let you hold the baby, they just lifted her up so i could see her and than they took her and vince away and I was left all alone to drift off to sleep.....I woke back up in a different room and vince was there telling me how cute our baby was.......aaaah he was so cute and happy!!! Vince and the nurse brought the baby in and he was right she was sooo damn cute, tons of hair , smooth olive skin, a very nice complextion for a baby and the darkest hair and eyes. Her little nose was sooo cute!! It wasn't a big ol honker like i thought it was going to be. She was much cuter than those 3-D ultrasound pictures that is for sure, LOL ( we were scared she had a huge nose cuz it looked Gi-normous in the 3D ultrasound pictures that i had, like "Grandmother willow on Pocahantis" ) So that was good!!! She was just content to look around, she wans't crying or wailing just looking and i remember thinking that she was such a good baby, looked and seemed soooo wise and somehow knew that i was a mess and had no idea what i was thinking, feeling or doing becomming a mom.
Back at our room we tried breasfeeding and she did great, latched right on and we both fell asleep. Well my milk didn't come in and they said "oh that is normal, the colastrum is the first thing to come out and that is all she needs" so i didn't worry and than the next day it didn't come in either or the next or next, it took 7 days to come in. So meanwhile i kept saying, " are you sure she is getting enough from me , i don't think she is and they (a.k.a the boob natzi's) or lactation consultants as the hospital calls them, well they kept saying "oh she is fine, she is getting all she needs" so over the week she kept losing weight and losing weight. She lost over 10% of her birth wieght and FINALLY they put her on formula to supplement since my milk still wasn't in. The poor baby, she started out as a content baby and through the week became a wailing baby and me and vince thought "oh crap we just had satan's child" well she wasn't the horrible child we thought we had she was just hungry, the poor little thing!!!! I felt soooo bad that she had been starving and no one did anything, so they kept us for extra days becasue of the weight loss and than she got jaundice really bad and we had to move to the pdiatrics side of the hospital because the poor little baby had to be put under the Billy lights.......
Poor baby billy!!!
it was sooo sad to see her like that =( On sat, (we were admitted to the hospital on Monday morning at 6am and now it was sat.) the dr said they wanted to keep her another day and that was it, all i could handle!!! I had a HUGE MELTDOWN!!!! i started bawling, i told them i could not stay another night in the hospital, so they said they would test her blood again that afternoon and if it had gone down and her wieght up than they would release her. So it was a miserable day, i had stopped taking my pain meds cuz they made me sleepy, the baby cryed and we couldn't take her out from under the lights, only long enough to eat so after a morning and afternoon of crying and stressing about weather we could go home or not they tested her and her count had gone down from 17 to 12 and her weight had gone up. she was 7 -7 when she was born and it had gone down to 6 lbs 3 oz's and it was now up to 6 lbs 13 oz's so they let us go home and we were SOOOOOO HAPPY!!!
Finally after 6 days in that place...uuugh... at about 8 or 9 at night Isabella was finally home!!!
Welcome home Izabee!!!!!
She was so tiny, the first night we sat on the couch and relaxed, had some real food and wondered were should we put her.....the crib, the bassinet was downstairs in our room and we wanted to lay on the couch and enjoy some much needed R & R!! So we decided to put her in the only thing we could think of that would fit right down in between the couch and coffee table where she could be by us........HAHAHAH
Yep the laundry basket!!!! oh soooo cute!! (ahahah she doesn't even fit into it anymore now)
Bellaroo's first diaper change at home was made by her very proud papa!!! oh look how sweet and tiny she is, OMG its so weird to remember back that she was sooo small, look at his hand compared to her little body.
Vince is very sweet and a great husband, look what he got me for my push present!!! It was there to greet me when i got home!!! and the house was clean!!!! Ive been wanting this camera for sooooo long ~ thanks Vincent!!!!!! ok actually i dont have any pictures of my camera i just realized but its a
Cannon EOS Rebel XSI 12.5 mega pixels or something crazy like that, it takes awesome pix!!!, I LUV this camera
The first night home was great, it was sooo nice to be in the comfort of our own house and not have all those wake ups in the middle of the night from the nurses who have to check all your vitals and stuff. Bella woke up about 4 times through the night in the beginning for feedings. Now she sleeps through the night thank god!!
it was very sweet and i do miss those days!!! We are now back in our bed downstairs and Bella is a big girl and sleeps either in her crib upstairs or sometimes in her bassinet in our room. 
